Hi, saja jenguk blog ni. Hahah after almost a year baru nak hupdate. And today is the first Syawal for 2013 so yeah Selamat Hari Raya! x
Anyway, how are you guys doing? Me is doing great, I hope.. Talking abt my life now, after this almost a year period, my life is totally changed. Again. But a good changing, Inshaallah.
I am working my ass off for something now. I see something in this 'something' that I'm doing. I think everybody knows abt this thing but I'm not ready to tell what it is now. Yet. One day Inshaallah.
But really, I see future, in this. This 'something' thing is very very simple. But hell no it isn't easy. I just get started and I've faced a lot of obstruction. From strangers, from my friends. And the saddest part is from my family, from my loved ones.
But why am I still doing this? Why?
Because I WANT TO CHANGE. And improve myself in everything. Change my family, change the mindset of people who are freaking judmental. They wants everything! But do nothing to achieve it, and just want to live in their very comfort zone. Working for 10, 20 freaking years with a boss who controls their life. And for some reason, they think, that is normal. They are okay with that. That is why. But first, I must start with MYSELF.
“Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves.” (Quran 13:11)
They live, without knowing WHY they are created by Allah in this world. They forgot, that we are meant to be khalifahs on this earth. We lives, to achieve the highest level of heaven, His Firdaus.
But, what did we do to achieve it?
I am not saying that I have done so much good. I am His slave, who always do mistakes. But we can change, to be a better person, a better ummah. For ourselves, and for Allah swt.
And in this 'something', I can see myself is improving Inshaallah. In so many ways. The way I think, the way I talk, my personal development, my relationship with others, the way I see people.
Me before. I was super shy, super low confidence. I was just a follower (I even put this in my bio on facebook lol). And I was a quitter. I was giving up so easily. I was a very ungrateful person, I complained abt eeeverything. But I just kept it with myself because I'm the type of person who keep everything only with me. I'll share if I feel it is needed to.
But that was me, BEFORE.
Now, I improved my confidence level, I can talk to aaaanyone, aaanywhere. I can look straight to their eyes when I talk. And, I can be a speaker in front of more than 100 people. Now I am a believer, I will fight for what I'm doing. For me, it is whether do, or die. I will not giving up. I'm not a quitter anymore. For a person like me, this is more than enough. But still there's a lot to improve. I am learning, to be a leader. I will improve Inshaallah. And yeah I learned to be more grateful for everything I have.
I will do this visualization everyday before I start the day, and whenever I feel down.
Take a deep breath, and release.
Take another deep breath, take all the positive energy, all the good things and happiness in your life,
Hold it,
Keep it deep inside you,
and release,
Release all the negative energy, all the stressfull and sadness in your life.
Take one more deep breath, and release.
Now let's be grateful,
Alhamdulillah, that we still alive today, to do one more day of good.
Alhamdulillah, we still have a house to live in, and a bed to sleep.
Alhamdulillah, we still have family and friends, who love us.
Alhamdulillah, we have pure water to drink, and food to eat, everyday, and everywhere.
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us eyes to see this beautiful world *touch your eyes*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us a nose to breath *touch your nose*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us ears to hear, to listen *touch your ears*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us a mouth to speak *touch your mouth*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us hand and fingers *touch your hand and fingers*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us a strong arms to hug our loved ones,
and
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us a healthy body *give yourself a hug, and say "I love myself"*
Alhamdulillah, Allah give us a pair of legs so we can walk to everywhere we wanna go *touch your legs*
Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for everything.
Now let's imagine,
Imagine yourself achieving your success,
All your family and friends congratulate you,
They are so proud of you.
And some of them come to you, with tears in their eyes, and say,
"Thank you, thank you for changing my life, thank you for not giving up"
And they give you a very tight hug, showing so much love for you.
Imagine yourself be the person you always wanted to be,
Full of leadership,
Full of confidence,
And full of love.
They all need you, everybody needs you.
But first, you must believe in yourself,
That you, can do it.
You can do this by yourself, or even in a group. It is working for me, I'll feel a lot better by doing this whenever I feel bad.
I will update and share more soon Inshaallah.
This is what I want to share for now, I hope this will benefits a person. My life is changing, change to good Inshallah.
Are you with me?
Love, farah aliya x
